Passionately Curious

When the only person who takes away your stress starts to stress you out.

Summer

You know what I miss? Floating on top of the corals while finishing a bottle of cocktail, looking at your surroundings, being one with nature. 

And that feeling you get when you get out of water, and the alcohol starts to get you. 

Beach, for the third time this summer, please?

Boyfriend

He writes:

i miss you badly..you know that?

all i can do is imagine the next time i’ll be able to be with you..

i imagine what you’ll be wearing..what color will your nails be? what shoes or sandals will you wear? which bag will you match with your outfit? will we wear the same color without planning it?

i love doing this hon..picturing you with me makes me look forward to that day when it’s actually happening.

you are the reason i look forward to the future now..i imagine a life with you..i want to live my life with you..

you are all i need Steph..and i won’t lose you..i promise i won’t do anything to lose you..

Steph, nothing compares to the feeling of being with you.

i love you baby..so much.

see you soon hon!

I love you, and I think what we have is extremely special.

I love you, and I think what we have is extremely special. 

I am very happy every time I am with you. You make my heart float, and that’s a good great thing. When I’m with you, I can just forget the world and just be myself. You make me strong. You make it easy for me to get through every day. I love how you look at me and how you make me feel special.

Thank you for giving me the best four years of my life (and more) , as a bestfriend, as a partner in crime, as a commute buddy partner, a foodtrip buddy partner, a TV series marathon buddy partner, and as a partner in life. 

I’m very lucky to have someone like you in my life. Thank you.

You know what I hate?

You know what I hate?

I hate how the society proclaimed that in order to be called beautiful, you have to have a tiny waist, nice long legs, firm arms, fair skin and nice hair.

You know what I hate more?

I hate that I believe what the society proclaimed. I don’t see myself as an acceptable human being because I gained weight and added inches to my waist.

I hate that I don’t see myself as beautiful anymore. Everything’s just messed up.

Facebook.

There is this part of me that wants to break down every time I open my facebook and see my old friends.

It makes me stop and wonder, “What the hell happened? we used to be great friends? now, we’re just two strangers.” 

When we all left high school, I’m pretty sure we said that we wont forget each other, that we will try to see each other despite our tragic schedules. But what happened?

My best friend since second year high school, I haven’t seen her in more than a year now. I haven’t talked to her for more than 8 months now. Is it my fault? Should I exert more effort to remain friends with them even if they don’t seem to give a single damn about me? 

I miss you.

Tell me something good.

My heart is a bit broken. Again.

What’s going on?

• Pale lips. CHECK.
• 3 out of 6 symptoms. CHECK.
• fatigue. CHECK.